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Oh My God, after a month din step into my blog n just sign in i realize that blogger had change their templates n format again. Actually i  more prefer the old style wan because simple n easy n now i feel more complicated.

Anyway, according the previous post i had mention that i will change to new employer in May but what i want to announces here i had change my decision again because of few reason. This all already past n the conclusion I'm staying back my current company now. My feeling now feel much better because i can continue freedom n flexible n stress free when working at here,mmmm just sometimes got a bit bored feeling like now... hahaha...Really thanks to my boss given me a chance to stay bek here n i will appreciate of it. Thanks =)

Actually this few days much unhappy happening in my family n my relationship... This feeling gonna to kill me n think to left here for cold down but unless today had settle down everything but my feeling keep down now. What i was think now is about Money $$. Yup $$ again, n actually i just had argue with my boyfriend.

I feel myself in his heart just a small potato. I didn't feel any love n caring from him unless someday he really needs me. Get what i means ??? Shhh.....  Just now my bf give me a call n said that he take his salary n tonight will pass money to me, don't misunderstanding !!! He not given me pocket money n just a money that i help him pay for car loan wan. Then we had short conversation at the moment but this conversation getting more worst because we starting argue again because of the $$.

I asked him if can put much money into out saving bank acct in order fast to get up first goal but he acting nothing n try to say he is poor. I feel sad u know ? Poor ? I feel this all nonsense !!! Do u think that how many years we only can get first 10k in every month just keep saving Rm 200 ? Do u think enough for it? I definitely feel NO AT ALL... RM 200 is too little for one guy who are average can earn 4k n above. I just request him put more a bit in order for us getting saving much but he not think so. He feel that he keeps all the money in his bank is the safer n which mean keep in our saving acct not safe ? I don't know what he think at all... n just now he said me I'm control his money.

Maybe yes !!! I'm control because i don't want he always waste the money on the thing that worth but his mind not same what I'm thought. He also said that that money was him wan n he like how to spend i also can't control. This sentences making feel more disappointed, when a couples already have been for 5 years n  everyday sleep besides u ,he will talk this to u. I just feel that what I'm actually in his heart ? Maid ? Gf ? Or someone to provided a good services to him ? This always the very BIG question MARK in my mind. I want found this answer n unfortunately until now i can't found the answer yet. Anyone can let me know ?

Alright, I always tell myself that i have to accept all the good n bad of him because i really love him but izzit he will think the same thing ? I'm don't think so, very simply only !!! What he willing do for me ? He can answer my question ? Why my Mr Right can being so selfish n not love me ? I tell u a funny thing, lucky he don't know my blog if he read all this he sure say all this bullshit. This is not the first time he say to me.....

Finaly Decision

I know i had been long time didn't update my blog n once today i update my blog then i need to announces that i will change new working environment by next month. This is my final decision n i hope that everything can go smooth.

Why i got such a sudden decision geh ? Actually before i making this decision i edy think more than 1month n almost taking 2 months to make this decision. This decision really hard to make it but end up i also choose to leave my current company n go new employer. I'm don't know that is right decision or not but i know that if i still not step up this first step then i won't have any changes in my life.

Its really unbreak my heart to leave current company because to find a job not hard but find a good employer that is very very hard. I'm at here employed almost 3 years n honestly i really enjoy such a freedom life but that bring disadvantages too because nth i can learn from here n sometimes really bored.

Anyway, the new employer i gonna to step in quite a big company also n more systematic n i need to be more discipline n follow the rules. Maybe under this control i can learn more n i really hope to take this opportunities to learn more n take the challenges. Am i right ? Hahaha today talk until here first because my blogging mood still lag at here since long time didn't  blogging jor hahaha .....

Wishing Myself All The Best & Good Luck =)

SoMe Times . . . . . . . .

Today was a Best Best Best day because of the date 11.11.11. What does mean by this date ? Hidden any special meaning ? Hmmm... maybe people will think that 11.11.11 mean can  forever and ever same as last year  10.10.10. Alright, this day sure have some couples went to registration married or celebration or whatever lah but this date definitely nothing special day for me.

This few month happening many happy and unhappy thing and the worst wan i had thought to give up 4 Years relationship but finally because my attitude too soft so that i change my mind, kekekeke perasannya  =P I'm really happy that this year i could travel few places that i never went before and also i got very the first cute niece in my life and bla bla bla... 

Ish during i sitting at office that doing nothing that time i start to think bukan bukan. I was think when i only can marry leh ? When i only get my first child ? Whose is my future husband ? How is my life in my future ? Full of sadness or happiness ? A lot question and question mark play around in my mind and started to dream.

When i looking the couples ard me starting one by one marry and got their own family that time i really feel they full of happiness and no regretted in their life. Mmmm   don't u all know or not actually i hope that i could marry before 22 years old and get my first child before 25 years old. Don't know that my dreams will come true mah ? Ish please don't think me that I'm still childish because just pass 21 Years old then think of marry ? Every people also have different thinking wan and me not necessary need to follow other people life and this is my optional.

Well i think today i talk a bit over jor and also dream too long and is the time to wake up myself.
                                                 Wake UP Wake Up Wake Wake Up =)

Welcome New Family Member, My Niece =)

 We was waiting waiting and waiting... Finally she want to comes out jor and officially out from her mother's tummy at 18/10/2011. Ya she is our new family member, my niece =) Hmmmm but until now i still don't know her name yet because finding a suitable and awesome name its not a easy job hahhaa ...

 She is my niece and just come to this world for few day. OMG .... looks so Lou Shui de ? Why har ? But usually new baby born its looks like that wan wor !!! My mother said after one month then will looks different jor geh and i feel he so small blek =P

 Okay this Lui Lui seems like to cry wan =.= Once cry his face turns red colour wan hahah. My mother trying to pujuk her and ask her stop crying but seems not successful. haha ...

 See this gor gor !!!! Bising wanna go hospital visit mei mei but once come edy then sleep like a pig oledy***
 Regardless of how  loud mei mei cry he also no feeling wan and continue sleep pulak =.=

 Oh rupanya mei mei is hungry and after nurse feeding her then she keep quiet edy and continue to sleep back hahaha ...One of my friends said why my niece just new born then edy so much hair jor ?? hahha  this really a good question and i also wonder know WHY ? hahah MAYBE she cukup vitamin and grow more hair gua hahaha

Anyway until now mei mei still don't have name yet and any suggestion ? Me and my sister suggest
黄芷晴 Ooi Tze Cheng. Nice mah ?My mother said the sound pronounce not so nice  wor !!!

Dine @ The One CaFe

Last Friday,  me & my mother and nephew went to The One Cafe for dinner. Actually i didn't plan dine at there because i know there's price sure costly but seems my mother wish to dine at there so we just went there. Hahhaa as i mention before, the price really costly !!! Well when we out for dinner not suppose looking of the price but the quality of food and the environment too right ?. Since there  provided a life band exactly same as "Station One" so the price ok lah, reasonable lah =) Once a time eat mahal mahal also tak lampau de izzit ???

Mmmm don't know u all know my style or not ? I not really like go for popular restaurant wan because i feel that they charge us for 10% services charges and 6% for government tax making me feel that not worth at all. We cari wang susah susah for dinner also need to give them tax which didn't provide any services f us.toAiya as i said Government ni  oways want money  for their buaya wan !!! (Understand my meaning) So because of my attitude of kiasu so normally i choose not dine inside shopping mall and i will select some outside stall wan. Hahaha k lah, continue The One Cafe instead of listen to me saying kiasu thing !@#$%%^

 Haha I'm always like to order this drink " Chocolate Blended " and i more prefer Chocolate Cream Chips from Starbucks wan hehehe =P....But this not bad lah, the taste quite ok  and the price Rm 8.80...

 I'm always like to order this but end everytimes order already then sure felt regret wan =.=
This is TomYam Mee Hoo and cost Rm 10.80. Mmm nothing special and the soup too sour and not really like because too much mee hon so absorb the soup edy so when i eat that time feel so dry =(

 My mother order this to My Nephew. It is a Marmite Chicken. Ish !@#$ My nephew tak sabar want to eat and he trying to eat chili !!! saw that ???

 She is my mother whose is the Best Mother & Best Grandma in the world because she always let us eat first then only she eat de because she know that we can't finish so she become Bandaraya edy hahaha... Sapu all ...Ops forget edy, this Marmite Chicken cost Rm 8.80

 After that i ask her to order for herself lah since we all so hungry wan. So she order this Thai Fried Chicken which is come with the taste sweet and sour and little bit spicy. Mmm this not bad also and cost Rm 8.80 also.

Every times saw my nephew eat so cute wan. He just suka suka show some pity face showing that he already full or dislike the food but actually everytimes he could finish all de ***faint***

This is Bonus Picture taking at Shop wan during eating Wan Tan Mee... See her dirty Mouth wahahhaa
I feel so funny and immediately taking down the picture ahahaa....

Give Up OR Keep On !!!

Hey this early morning i really feel a bit sad !!! I'm hate this feeling and this feeling definitely spoil my mood and my emotion. Alright actually this quite private thing but i decided to share at here.

Nowadays i realize that my bf do always chat with another girl at facebook. I have read the details,although they not talk about love but i so curious there how come my bf can often chat with this girl instead of me ? Ya last time when he chasing me that time he will so often sms  me and one day  maybe more than  10 sms but now ? Is 0 !!! But he can every second also chat with this girl at FB !!!

I started not understand him !!! I feel the more  time i had been together with him the more i not understand him. Me change or he change ? This few days we didn't talk much,ops is even not talk at all !!! I know that he not that love to me as last time or maybe he feel that 4 years edy no more fresh  anymore ?  How about me ? I always tell myself, don't think too much and they just a friend  and friend chat with friend is normally wan and why i think so much and make myself  feel unhappy ? Why ?

Ya i know i not suppose to read his chatbox but when i saw their conversation i really feel so sad. My bf will asking and like to care this girl so much and every message also got the smiley wan. I got try to message to my bf and see either the same thing he will reply to me ? U know how ? He even didn't reply me at all, when i asked him then he just give me an excuse didn't saw my message !! I know this is a excuse, why another girl message him he will reply in a short while and my message he said din saw it !!!  Impossible right ?

This few day i really wish to argue with him about this but once i think got use meh if i argue and that time maybe let him a chance  to scold me back why i read his message. I feel myself really stupid and what  i can do just keep quiet and this few days i didn't talk to him and he also didn't  ask me why.

I feel that this guy no longer love me anymore. What should i do ?  Continue stick with him or quickly settle down our relationship? I should give up or keep on ? Who can let me know ?

My Dear's Birthday 26 September 2011

25 September 2011, Sunday

Last Monday was my boyfriend's birthday and this year nothing special and also didn't really celebrated on it and we just out for dinner. That's ALL !!!Ish sound like such a boring life right ? ya i feel that also and i hope that next year i could bought a free seat flight ticket and we fly to Hong Kong celebrated birthday on next next year kekeke ... wahhh so far punya plan ..=D Let's come back here first !!!

After whole day jalan shopping to bought a present to him finally we get it and we also went for dinner at Pantai Seafood Village which is people called it Shui Sheung Yan Kah (水上人家) Mmmm... honestly i feel that this restaurant nothing special except the named !!! Phew ... it was pretty expensive for me and i think that is a first time and also the last time i went to there. Hahhaa......

Okay let introduce the food we eaten on that day but i want to strictly tegaskan that i not advertised for this restaurant but it just a sharing and also a diary for myself only. 

Wao... birthday also order Shark Fin Soup ? Ya my dear's fren said wish to eat wor hahha..
Mmmm i tell u lah i suspect this Fin was fake wan lo and the taste similar to Pasar Malam de =.=Pasar Malam de one bowl Fin Soup cost me Rm 4.50 only and this big bowl cost me Rm 120 !@#$%

Next ... This is the most delicious wan Sambal Prawn and the prawn quite fresh and big but this plate definitely not cheap lol hahha ...

Woooi ... Why looks like a river in the between wan ? Ish who curi makan before i capture pic arggggg !@#$%^ This called Lemon Chicken and nothing special just normal lol hahah ...

GUESS what is this ? Ya this is Salad Prawn and curious why order 2 plate prawn geh  ?? Actually they wan to order Yin Yeung Prawn de but finish jor so separate order this Salad Prawn.

Yeah .. this is my favourite Fried Squid but so sad the chef who cook this seems don't have the skill to fried Squid wan because its not the taste that i want and this is the worst food charm .......

Fish ? Wahahhaa if my besties at here they should laugh me that i eat my same keturunan wan =.= Ya one of my nick name called Fish !!! Actually i not so like eat fish wan but if come out with friend so i respect them and let them order this Fish called Bak Suk Gong. Eat before ? quite common fish la and the fish cost Rm 87.00 ...!@#$%^&* Damn expensive loh and its is not a mewah fish also !@#$%^

Next this is Claypot Chicken and i not like this because got mushroom and Muk Yu !!! That wan i after eat will vomit de so i ignore this claypot. Although i didn't eat but when i see or smell the bau i also got feeling want to vomit wan damnn .... My bf said me Tai Siu Jie is like that wan !!! Look plp allergy this food mah.

Last is my favourite Salted Egg Crab but so sad this is not the taste that i WANT !!!. So poor the chef don't know cook a nice salted egg crab compare with BB Thai. So i just eat one small part only and the rest my dear's friend finished it. Sob Sob ....

Hahah this is the picture we taken at there and realize that his T-Shirt. Ya this is the present i  bought for him !!! Was his favourite shirt Lacoste -T. Faint**** He very like crocodile wan =.= DONT KNOW WHY !!!

Den Den Den ... after ate sure go Mai Dan lah (pay bill) and guess this 9 food cost us how much leh ? It cost us Rm 550 included services charge % and government tax 11%. Ish this useless tax already charge is Rm 50 !!!! Damn... !@#$% Okay actually i not so satisfied this Restaurant lol but they say wanna go try they try lol. People always said Belum Try Belum Tau, Sudah Try Hari Hari Mau but for me Belum  Try Belum Tau , Sudah Try Mau Mati !!! Hahaha joke joke only lah ^^

 After dinner then they said wanna go for dessert wor before end the day so we went go PJ SS2 to had our dessert and I'm sure majority people know this restaurant wan. Ya is the most popular restaurant makan dessert de especially Sai Mai Loh.  Of course i order this lah my favourite Mango Loh, i remember when i started couple with my boyfriend , he always bring me here eat Mango Loh wan  and almost once a week but NOW !!!@#$^^ Once a year lah !@#$%^Ish start complaint again hahhaa .........

26 September 2011, Monday

This day only the actual day his birthday and so sad that couldn't celebrated with him because he got OT on this day. Actually we plan go for Teoh Heng KTV on this day wan sob sob...but because suddenly he have to work so cancel the planning and i just bought a small cake celebrated with him.

Hahhaa... this is the cake !!! Unbelievable right !!! Hahah this is for my nephew dehis's birthday ... hahah faint*** he non-stop singing happy birthday's song ~ ~look so happy ~ ~

Again.. he was so excited and ask me to light up the candle for him to flow !! I told him that today was not your birthday but he just ignore what I'm said and keep singing birthday song ***

Ya this is the cake i bought for my dear. Haha so sorry no secret recipes, no bakery cottage , no branded cake and just a simple cake hhaha ... Actually he request me to bought this cake for him and myself also don't know since when he like to eat pandan layer wan =.= Ish this girlfriend  !@#$%^ As i know he not really like cake de wor ??? Am i right ?

Ya just now i said on his birthday that day he have to work OT right ? Then when he could back and eat the cake leh ? Hahhaa the story is begin like that wan, the god know that he so kesian because on birthday also have to work OT and that time he was sitting besides longkang and he called me and said how pity of him but i just laugh only. Then i promise him that i will bought a cake for him wan and waiting for him back but so sad that he told me that he have to OT until midnight. Pitynya ~ ~ Then about half an hour gone, then suddenly there was a heavy raining until they couldn't continue their work so he got a reason to come back home a while and take a short rest while waiting raining stop. So during raining time he come back my house and get this cake...hahha, really thanks god and he is the one give us a chance for me to celebrated birthday with him. Thanks ... after 1 hour then he go back to site and continue their work =D.

***aiya just realize that i add one extra candle leh,i think this year he should be 25 years old right but i add 26 candle arggggggg.....****