Mmm... actually I'm wont be give up like that because just have 2 and half months to go only. Anyway, I'm just will try my best... Today I'm wish to share A GooD NEWS !!!!! Finally everything okay edy and Finally my mother discharged edy =D
Actually Last week i'm totally not happy at all because my mother have to admit to hospital and do for a operation to remove her ovary. I'm feel myself a bit useless, when she go for surgery that time i was sitting at office and doing nothing. I'm wish that i could stay there and watching her but i know that I'm taking so many leave for this year so I'm not dare to take leave again so I'm try to manage my time and avoid taking leave.
On Wednesday, early the morning I'm fetching my mother went to hospital and after doing the registration then I'm back to work and ard 11am my mother start doing operation. I'm only received her call at 5 pm something and she said that she in suffering condition and its so painful. That time I'm feel wanna cry because I'm couldn't accompany her because I'm have to attend class. I'm only can visit her after class but sometimes over 9pm the security not allow me to go in =(
Repeat doing the same thing on next day but when on Friday I'm get a bad news !!!!! Doctor said that My mother ovary grows a lot unknown thing and he suspect there is a very high chance its a CANCER !!! But all this just suspect only and doctor said need to wait until report come out only know. By the time, My mother felt so sad and she looks like give up her life because she non stop crying and she say will bye bye with us sooner. I'm tot I'm can be stronger and tahan my tears but at the end I'm crying too when in wad but i know that we cannot be so negative. I'm must be stronger so that only can give a confident to my mom.
However, I'm don't know what i can do if the report comes out it is Cxxxxx !!!! I'm try to give some support to her but still cannot calm down her emotion and what i can do is pray and pray... I'm crying while driving, bathing and working... I'm prays that gods can save my mom and prays that gods can kesian my mom. U know why ?
( Actually my mother was a twins but is non-identical twins. When she born then my grandma give my mom to other plp and the other twins still staying with my grandma. At the first few years my mother consider stay in quite good life because her new mother quite sayang her but after the mother divorce with father then new mother leave the family and marry to other guy and my mother's ayah angkat not allow new mother bring her to new family there so forced to stay at this family. After that ayah angkat marry to women and got few children then that women not allow my mother go for school and my mother stop school when standard 3 and have to jaga adik and doing housework at home. Just a 9 years old children need to take care 2 baby and also doing housework and eat also not enough. After few years my mother have to come out work to earn money and meet my father also. They start couple but my grandpa and family not agree my mother marry with my father because they said my father useless and poor. However my mother not care and still marry with my father and the suffering life start again because of poor so that my mother have to work also when she pregnant. Then my father have to jump aeroplane to leave Malaysia and went to japan work. My mother alone have to take care of our 3 monster + need to work also. Our life really suffering and we just stay at wooden house which everyday need to scare of floods when heavy rain and also scare of burning during we had slept. After my father back to Malaysia then only have little money to doing business and my mother also helping my father to take care of shop for many many years. When my second brothers marry edy then my mother need to take care of grandchild also and also take care of us also because she cook for us, carry for us and doing everything for us. We whole family involve an accident and actually her leg also injured too but she didn't stop caring us and terbalik she so take care of us also. She really a good mother even sometimes she got a bit garang and scolding us but without her without us and we become so good now because of her. More than 40 years she san fu and at then end she get many penyakit and I'm really feel so sad and I'm just can doing nothing. Until now she 50 years old also need to do for a big operation.)
That's why I'm prays the god can help my mom and my mom actually do have many sister and brother but because of separate since when my born so that their relationship not so close, so nobody comes to support my mom but at the end I'm decided give a calls to my Uncle which is stay at JB and immediately they comes to KL after receiving the NEWS and I'm really hope that they can give a support to my mom so that she can be more stronger.
On Saturday morning, doctor come to check up and he told us report come out edy and asked my mother don't worry so much because there is not a Cxxxxx but its is Leong Sing. Even trough, my moms still need to go back check up for every 6 months also. This day my mom was crying and thanks god because of save her life and wont let her leave us and she crying and told me that she tot she cant see my marry and cant see my nephew grow up. She really scare but after receiving the report then she no more worry and becomes more happy and of course when saw her sister and brother comes to visit her then she become more positive and happy. Anyway.. I'm need to thanks god but thanks to my brother also because my brother went to some temple and praying for mother also. At here I'm wish that my mother faster recover and all the bad thing don't come over anymore.
Okay... really grandma post edy until don't know what I'm blogging edy and after this incident I'm must be more appreciate my family and trying do not let them disappointed so i'm must try my best to pass my exam so my mother will be more happy .... Okay, I'm try to do not demotivate myself anymore. Thanks my friends =D
