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Oh My God, after a month din step into my blog n just sign in i realize that blogger had change their templates n format again. Actually i  more prefer the old style wan because simple n easy n now i feel more complicated.

Anyway, according the previous post i had mention that i will change to new employer in May but what i want to announces here i had change my decision again because of few reason. This all already past n the conclusion I'm staying back my current company now. My feeling now feel much better because i can continue freedom n flexible n stress free when working at here,mmmm just sometimes got a bit bored feeling like now... hahaha...Really thanks to my boss given me a chance to stay bek here n i will appreciate of it. Thanks =)

Actually this few days much unhappy happening in my family n my relationship... This feeling gonna to kill me n think to left here for cold down but unless today had settle down everything but my feeling keep down now. What i was think now is about Money $$. Yup $$ again, n actually i just had argue with my boyfriend.

I feel myself in his heart just a small potato. I didn't feel any love n caring from him unless someday he really needs me. Get what i means ??? Shhh.....  Just now my bf give me a call n said that he take his salary n tonight will pass money to me, don't misunderstanding !!! He not given me pocket money n just a money that i help him pay for car loan wan. Then we had short conversation at the moment but this conversation getting more worst because we starting argue again because of the $$.

I asked him if can put much money into out saving bank acct in order fast to get up first goal but he acting nothing n try to say he is poor. I feel sad u know ? Poor ? I feel this all nonsense !!! Do u think that how many years we only can get first 10k in every month just keep saving Rm 200 ? Do u think enough for it? I definitely feel NO AT ALL... RM 200 is too little for one guy who are average can earn 4k n above. I just request him put more a bit in order for us getting saving much but he not think so. He feel that he keeps all the money in his bank is the safer n which mean keep in our saving acct not safe ? I don't know what he think at all... n just now he said me I'm control his money.

Maybe yes !!! I'm control because i don't want he always waste the money on the thing that worth but his mind not same what I'm thought. He also said that that money was him wan n he like how to spend i also can't control. This sentences making feel more disappointed, when a couples already have been for 5 years n  everyday sleep besides u ,he will talk this to u. I just feel that what I'm actually in his heart ? Maid ? Gf ? Or someone to provided a good services to him ? This always the very BIG question MARK in my mind. I want found this answer n unfortunately until now i can't found the answer yet. Anyone can let me know ?

Alright, I always tell myself that i have to accept all the good n bad of him because i really love him but izzit he will think the same thing ? I'm don't think so, very simply only !!! What he willing do for me ? He can answer my question ? Why my Mr Right can being so selfish n not love me ? I tell u a funny thing, lucky he don't know my blog if he read all this he sure say all this bullshit. This is not the first time he say to me.....

Finaly Decision

I know i had been long time didn't update my blog n once today i update my blog then i need to announces that i will change new working environment by next month. This is my final decision n i hope that everything can go smooth.

Why i got such a sudden decision geh ? Actually before i making this decision i edy think more than 1month n almost taking 2 months to make this decision. This decision really hard to make it but end up i also choose to leave my current company n go new employer. I'm don't know that is right decision or not but i know that if i still not step up this first step then i won't have any changes in my life.

Its really unbreak my heart to leave current company because to find a job not hard but find a good employer that is very very hard. I'm at here employed almost 3 years n honestly i really enjoy such a freedom life but that bring disadvantages too because nth i can learn from here n sometimes really bored.

Anyway, the new employer i gonna to step in quite a big company also n more systematic n i need to be more discipline n follow the rules. Maybe under this control i can learn more n i really hope to take this opportunities to learn more n take the challenges. Am i right ? Hahaha today talk until here first because my blogging mood still lag at here since long time didn't  blogging jor hahaha .....

Wishing Myself All The Best & Good Luck =)