I'm really don't know what can i do now? Just treat nothing happen or say out that word ' We Just Separate? Yesterday we argue again ( me and my bf ) and he scold me that i disturb him to attend his friend wedding party. I disturb him?? he went to his friend party almost 3 and half hour from 8pm-11.30pm. I just call him and ask him faster back home and don't too late then after that he straight away come to my house and scold me.
He say his friend laugh him because saying he scare girl friend and his friend say next time when my boyfriend marry then wont come for the party. I didn't mention that he necessary come back but just asking him faster back home and don't play too late only. Am i wrong?? Am i wrong?? Whatever i explain he also thought I'm wrong wan and he say he sengaja back my house and scold me de.
Then i told him, ya i also sengaja call him back early because he didn't fetch me go to college. Actually he promise me since last week about this week will fetch me go to college if he didn't have overtime work but yesterday ard 5.30pm he only call me and ask me go by myself because his friend say night ard 8.00pm start going his friend wedding party. Friend say 8pm go there then he can reject me and ask me go by myself and what is the different waiting more 1 and half hour only go for his friend party??? Actually he can fetch me go college first then back home about 9.30pm then only go his friend there la. is ok wat!!!
Because of this reason i already not happy and I'm not sengaja want argue with him wan but i really cannot tahan friend say what then he follow. I'm know last time i too control him but this year i already changes myself very much lioa. I'm try to give him more own time to do whatever he like and every times argue i also be the first to take action but this time leh?? I got wrong mah??If i got wrong then he also got wrong!!!
Yesterday i cry at my cry almost one hour and he didn't bother me langsung and just go downstairs watch astro and i cry and cry and cry with non-stop and i asking myself should i give up this relationship?? This time he was very angry with me and he scold me that I'm the one wont changes my attitude and always give trouble to him. On that time i have think say out We Just Separate, We Game Over but i non-stop crying and i really don't want this really happening.
So i give he to choose either he still want to keep our relationship or not. He always say i make a call to disturb him then today whole day i also wont call him and I'm waiting his call but if today whole day he also didn't call me which mean WE ARE GAME OVER. I very hope .............
This morning when i drove to office then radio playing one song that sing by Tank ' RU GUA WO BEAN CHAN HUAI YI' then just now when i start blogging then radio playing 'WO ZHI DAO' from BY2 and now when i wan stop my blogging then radio playing 'XIN BU LIOA CHING'. All this song izzit give me a signal or meaning for me??
I very useless and i very hate myself very easy to cry ... Normally girl friend cry then boy friend should will heart pain and pujuk back girl friend but for me NO. When i cry until eyes bleeding also no use because he wont bother me and care me. Why ??????????????
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