MooD Not GooD

Today really feel moody and now not wish to do anything at all. I'm was thinking why family having so much of financial problem? I'm feel so tired of it, not wish to face it and think it.

Yesterday my mother told me that she feel very sad because my brother always blame my mother. Why blame to my mother ?? He say not fair because himself to pay all the loan and fees while my another brother and me just pay nothing.

Actually I'm so sayang my mother wan, when I'm looking of her so sad then I'm also cannot tahan and feel sad too (almost cry). My family were not from rich family and until now we just need to work for car loan and house loan de. Actually some big secret hiding in my heart many many years edy. Really wish to say out and shout out but i cant do that.

Do u all know what is the meaning of " Ka Ka Yau Pun Lan Lim De Qing " I'm sure every family also have this problem de but just they keep it as secret because this is not a good thing.
Same to my family also, everyone also thought that I'm so rich or my family so rich but i can say at here NO AT ALL. This called "Ni Tei Ngo Hou Ngo Tei Ni Hou" and something " Yau Fu Mo Yan Ji"

The big secret really cannot say out even at my blog also cannot!!! I'm just can say it related to Financial problem wan lah (of course NOT HUTANG from "Tai Yi Long")

OK lah.. blogging until here because I'm really don't have mood to continue it anymore tadaa..