Yesterday after finish my class at 9.00 pm and then rush back to my house because I'm very tired and wish to have a bath then go to bed. Around 9.35pm only reach my home then i go for bath sin and after bath come down have a dinner or supper lah haha because already 10.00pm lol. How i'm not be fat lol?? always eat late of the night and after eat then go for sleep like pig !!!
What i want talking today is not about this.Today whole day I feel very unhappy and stress. Why? I don't know is my fault or i thinking too much. Whatever i have been also have something happen and this make me so stress and don't know how to settle it. When i go back to office then office don't have work for me to do then i just sitting here surf net, blogging, msn, facebook and some more. Of course i will finish my work first before do my own thing but sometimes i really scare my boss scold ( i think they wont scold de ) If i not do my own thing then i sitting there also don't know doing what. Hmmm...understand my feeling? This is the one reason make me stress and I'm not say this company or boss were not good but I'm worry in one day they say don't want using me.
After i have my lunch with my friend which is older than me 15 years old then i change my mind already. He advice me don't think so much and just go for straight because now I'm still young and what i need to do is concentrate in my studies now and maybe not easy for me to handle because I'm working full time and talking part time as my study. After i heard his advice i really felt more comfortable already.
At the night pulak... after having my dinner then i asking my big brother give me back money because i lend him Rm 80 on Tuesday. He give me so many reason then he just give me back Rm 30 only and that time i really felt very angry and i very Gek Sam. Rm 80 is not a big amount for him but for is do. My salary only Rm 1000+++ and his salary Rm 7000++. How to compared? Every cents i also need to save it. Back home lioa also need to FAN about money because my mother always say bla bla bla and at the end only me will give money to her and the rest wont do it. So many expenses i need to tanggung. I'm not a banker and i also not photostat machine to copy money wan mah. All the thing that need money wan also come over me. If i really have high salary and extra income then I'm really not mind to share it or pay for the expenses but now at my family mine salary is the lowest wan then i need to pay more wan. Unfair for me!!! rite?
At office also stress then go back home also need FAN about money and i think can talk with my boy friend geh but he no response to me. When come to my house just know to watch Astro and then playing game. Who should i talk with? If i talk to him later argue only then i choose not to say anything and just act nothing only.
Better way is blogging because i can write out whatever I'm thinking now and no need to care what other people thinking of me.
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